this entry has been on draft since last week when i started to feel it, but what came out was how i felt - empty.
thanks to boys night out, i was reminded that i had this entry pending and thought this annual emptiness deserves a post. so yes, i've been emotionally-challenged recently and i find it funny. ambivalence is the best summation of what i feel and i've been casting myself to deep thoughts of doubt and unsatisfaction which has kept me mum at most times.
the birthday is coming up and everyone's excited, except me. but i have to do it, and i have decided that this time will be the last. i hope it turns out better than last year, and i hope i don't drown myself with alcohol this time.
which reminds me, i don't have the financial liberty i had last year. sigh. but at least i can do whatever i want without being watched by a hawk's eye --- which i kind of miss. ugh, sarah, when will you ever learn?
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