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i'm elated. i feel deep, authentic happiness - the kind i have never experienced before. i don't fear any longer. i actually do not even care anymore. i have arrived at a place where i know myself again, in total control of my emotions, with my spirit and enthusiasm to living rekindled. life maybe more complicated now with more challenges but i know i can do it, as i have been in the last 40 years. 

i want to celebrate 7 months of fighting through all my post-breakup demons with a congratulatory post but i digress. there's something else i want to celebrate, and that's you, Pao G.

182 days, 6 months of your patience, understanding, and chivalry helped me heal immensely. i still can't figure what your interest in me is,  but maybe i should believe what you said - that you did feel love for me even early on. funny how day to day, you come out as someone i actually prayed for, and that tickles me to my core.

thank you, P. and I think I love you too.